Ugh

Today I feel like crap. I am at BMI and I want nothing more than to be back in my bed, asleep. My throat hurts and my head feels stuffy. I am not sure if this is allergies or a head cold. All I know is I do not like it.

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Neverset

I saw Neverset at Scout the other night and had a great time, as usual. They did not need me to work merch for them because Cameron came with them on the tour. I helped a little when he needed to step away from the table, but that was it. It was kind of nice to be able to stand at the stage and enjoy the full experience, instead of watching from the side. It had been a while since I had done that. I got some good pictures of the guys on stage and am pretty proud of a few of them.

I just have to say that Ryan looked really good. He has lost a lot of weight and is looking buff. He told me that he has stopped drinking alcohol, started eating better, started drinking at least a gallon of water a day, and is exercising every other day. Doing that he has managed to lose about 50 pounds. Seeing him is definitely an inspiration.

I will put some pictures on here soon. Until then you can view pictures on my Neverset Army Myspace or click here to go straight to the photo albums.

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GRRRRRRR!

I am so sick and tired of my family! I want to move out of this damn house but am unable to because I give half of my crappy pay check to my parents. They assume, as they always do, that I am not saving a dime and still spending money foolishly. Boy are they wrong. They have no clue that I have close to $400 saved in an account.

Today I could have put my fist through a wall and not cared about the damage it would do, at least not to the wall, and possibly not to myself either. I am so tired of not being good enough and having every mistake I've ever made thrown back into my face. "You could have gone to college and be making more money" Really? How is that possible when I went and looked into school and was very excited about it only to be told I can't afford it and I'm not college material. Or, yeah mom, let's just throw my weight issue back into my face. No, I haven't been to the gym lately, but it's hard to keep myself motivated when I'm constantly being told that I should cancel the membership because we all know I'm not going to stick with it. But yet she'll send me some Baylor weight loss study where you take medicine so they can see how you react to it and they pay you. Sorry mom, I'm not willing to risk my health for money.

Money seems to be everything to her. At one point in time she said I should sell my eggs for money. Umm hell no. I'm sorry, but I do not want to be like Chuck and wonder what children are out there that I created.

*sigh* I just want to be somewhere that I belong. somewhere where I don't hate myself and don't wish that Chuck and Johnnie had never met. Somewhere away from the negative people in my life that call themselves family. But, unfortunately, I am stuck in this hell with no hope of a brighter future in the the distance. I feel myself slipping back into the depression that has been my blanket for most of my life. The one thing in my everyday life that I have always been sure of.

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And I'm done

I have finally finished the Twilight Saga. All 2,560 pages of it! I have never read so much in just one week, apart from school of course. I am pleased to have finished it, but sad that it is over. Now I need to find something else to read that will hold my attention. lol

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I can't believe I'm reading so much!

Well, I finished Eclipse today, not too long ago to be exact. I am trying to get Breaking Dawn right now, but Kindle is not cooperating. Ugh. It's odd to have read so much this week. Twilight has 544 pages, New Moon has 608 pages, and Eclipse has 640 pages, for a grand total of 1,792 pages. *falls over* I just have not wanted to put the books down. Even now, when I have just finished a book and am waiting for the next to finally pop up on my iPhone, I still want to be reading. This is a good thing. I have missed finding enjoyment in reading.

Wow

It only took me two days to read New Moon. I completed it last night. Today I will be starting on Eclipse and am looking forward to it very much. I might try The Southern Vampire Mysteries (the Sookie Stackhouse series, the books behind HBO's True Blood) after I finish off the Twilight Saga. I was told if I like Twilight then I should like True Blood as well. Well, I am off to read!

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OMG I can read!

I can not remember the last time I sat down and actually finished a book. Perhaps while I was still in high school? Well, that has all changed. I finished Twilight in a matter of four days, I believe. Tonight I moved onto New Moon. I have been reading for 7 hours! I did not want to put "the book" down. I say "the book" because I am reading it on my iPhone. I am in the middle of chapter 12 and only stoping because I must sleep before going to TSU. So I should probably bring this blog to a close.

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Boating Fun

I'm still not feeling well, but I couldn't pass up an invitation to go out on the boat.

For those of you who remember, my family was going to go fishing a while ago but was unable to because of a motor issue. Well, my dad took it to the boat doctor and they could not recreate the problem and found nothing wrong with it so dad decided to take it out for a test run today.

Everything went really well until we got close to our backyard and the there was this high pitch noise telling us one of the engines was overheating so we basically lost that engine for the rest of the ride.

Other than that it went well. Nobody fell overboard. No phones were lost in the lake. We almost lost a guide rail on the way home but some guy honked and pointed at the boat to let us know it had fallen off.

Dad has to take it back to the boat doctor to see what's wrong this time. Hope we get another test drive that can go smoothly so we can ride longer.


Here is our route, or as close as I can get to what we did lol. The blue dot to the right of 2094 is about where we lost the guide rail.

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Not Well

Lately I have not been feeling very well. I have had a bad headache and soreness in my body and my stomach has also not felt well. Today I had planned to go to the health store to get some herbs, but Schlotzskys messed up that plan. I had to do salads then take a catering order to Pasadena. They didn't get me out of the store until too late so I was already behind schedule for my run. After dropping the order I didn't know if there was a store nearby that I could go to so I just went onto BMI. Turns out there was a store not far from where I was. *sigh* You mean to tell me I could possibly be headache free if I knew that at the time? Oh well. Hopefully I'll get out of here with enough time to go past a store so I don't have to suffer another night.

Last night Nokose asked our mother and father to help me in dealing with this pain. He was afraid that I may be offended by this, but I found it to be a very sweet gesture and am very appreciative for this help.

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